sch has started.

as my title have mentioned, sch has started, yes, it's th start of a new semester, i'm still in holiday mood, have to wake up from it& buck up before my result gets worst. oh well, ytd was th 1st day of sch, so far.. so good. yes, everything hasn't change, everything's in place. had a hard time carrying th books home-.-ll so.. it's good to have boyf, cos can ask boyf to carry for you=P tday, went to build a bear workshop to buy sth for shihlei, cos 30th is her birthday, that's one day before my beloved sis' 21st. so fast.. she's alr 21. haha.

my timetable is totally different from that of vivian's. that means.. we can't go home tgt anymore. SIGH. i guess i'll only be able to meet her up on holidays & weekends? omg. and it have been like half a yr since i've last went out with kaiting & joanna! hahaha. miss them sooo much. tired=(((((( HOHO.

shall blog again when i've got things to blog =]

15th Oct

today is th 15th, another 3days before sch reopen. th timetable really makes me dont feel like going to sch. sigh, but what to do? nth i can do.

sometimes, i wish you understand how i feel, why am i trying so hard. ytd, you came aft me when i got angry, does this shows that you love me & dont wanna lose me. i mean.. afterall, you're not my boyf, there's no need for you to cajole me. nevermind, it all ended, & started from there over again. maybe in time to come, we'll see if we're meant for each other. since you are going to NS, and i have sch& projs to be busy with. i was initially thinking if i should meet you, aft some advice, i still decided to see you & talk things out once & for all. thanks vivianNAH & raymond.

anw, i'm meeting joanne sweetie tgt with her hubby & her hubby's friend ltr to buy her baby stuffs, gonna meet vivianNAH at 5 smth to buy my shoes, should i get th dress to wear on jiejies's bday? but it means spending another money-.- shoes = jiejie sponsor ma. dont get jealoused that my sis is good=P

was talking to kt th other day, it's been really long since we've last met up, & we both miss sec sch, kt ah kt.. dont worry ah! your bday we will sure meet you up de. i will try to find a day for you, if on th 4th itself i cant make it, i'll organise another celebration for you. i rmb i once told you or ernern, i'm afraid if we go poly, we wont be able to celebrate our bdays tgt cos we will find our own clique in poly, th reply i got was, no.. we will celebrate bdays tgt for th rest of our lives. idk who said this. but one of you did. my dearest sisters=]]]]]

rainbowrainbowrainbowrainbowrainbowrainbowrainbow (;

lies? regrets? lies?

received a call from you. are you lying again? or are you srsly regretting it? trt me well? hm. idk if you will. i miss you, but so what? will history repeat itself? if you can lie to me over such trivial matters, what about in th future? mind you, we're not tgt yet. what's gonna happen IF we get tgt. i hate it like that.. i srsly hate it hate it hate it. sometimes, i wish i could just ignore your call, but.. i can't bring myself to do it.

all i can do is to sing, singing makes me forget about you. told you i didn't miss you, nah. not possible. i wish i could accept another guy easily, but no.

ANW.... went to dye my hair back to black tday at mum's salon while vivianNAH rebonded her hair, i think she looks better now, what do you think? i love my hair now, cos it looks blue under th sun, looks much neater now.

FCUKTHISFEELING.

another saturday.

no boyfs, no dates. sigh~ another saturday.

sometimes, i wish i had a boyf, having a boyf means you get to watch all th movies you want cos there'd always be someone who'd watch it with you. friends might watch it with their boyfs or girlfs. but when will i meet th perfect guy?hmmmm.

have been going out for th past few weeks, was totall packed, phone kept ringing.. but now.. my phone's all quiet. feel so uncomfortable with it being quiet. ever since th 6th. i feel empty. have been meeting vivian for l4d, i think we getting a LITTLE bit more pro. haa. supposed to meet joleen for tanning. have been pushing it back & back. sorry dear. will meet you really soon.

gonna meet JEANNIElove on monday, celebrate her bday.. just th 2 of us. another day will be after her olvls with yinhuiLOVE, xiuyu & eileen. i really wished i could go back to sec sch life. all these things will not be like that now. if i had a choice, i will srsly treasure those times.

and my phone's getting a bit crazy. sometimes, i can use th touchscreen functions, but sometimes, i cant. like.. srsly.. zzz. i like th phone, but it's getting me mad. i need a new phone. but mum says i'd have to wait for sis' bday to be over. which means i can only get a new phone in nov. but it's alright, so long as i get th phone i want. just get me my dream phone! wanted to get LG crystal, but after awhile, th LG phone's price will srsly drop by a lot. so i'm thinking of omnia2 or nokia's phone. but sis say nokia's phone is super lag. hmmmm.. i wonder..

went to lot1 with vivian to get her lashes & ate our brunch tgt, bus-ed to bukit timah for l4d. went to meet raymond thr, played tgt. he like quit pro hur. hm. trained to jurong east tgt with raymond, i continued my train journey to mummy's shop while he walked home. had dinner with mum&dad. & HOME SWEET HOME.

半情歌

花接受凋零
风接受追寻
心的伤还有一些
不要紧
我接受你的决定
你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想着天空什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停
你的明天有多快乐
不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了
伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福一半甜的
一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
我只能唱著一半的歌

我的明天快不快乐
都是我的
我只能唱著
另一半的歌

hmm

why am i feeling this way now?

sigh.. so long as i have my family by my sides, it's enough.

what's love? nothing. maybe? or is it just jealousy.

btw, my phone's spoilt. th touchscreen button can't be pressed. hmm.=((

thanks ELEANOR!

omg. eleanor is so sweeet. really thanks for all th times you've listened to me & my whinings. heee. i promise i'll stay strong.! you're th best friend one could get.

she blogged this, i gan dong until cry ley. heeee:

Dearest ZiyaBaby:)

I LOVE YOU♥!
Dont think so much about it kay!
Ignore,Ignore,Forgive,Forget.
They are born like that la.cant help it, cant blame them too.
Pisces are TrueEscapist.
See, I'm a classic example.
No matter what, You have Me still ya!:)

'Lean on me,When you're not Strong,
I'll be there, I'll help you carry on.'

I'll Love You Till The End Of Time.

Ziya.
You're Always Be My Baby♥

DEDICATED TO MY SKINNYSIS<3

i wanna apologise to my skinnySIS♥

jie, i'm really sorry. i'm wrong about you. i kept thinking that you dont care about me anymore, cos' you kept nagging & scolding me nowadays. you dont have time to listen to my problems anymore. i felt that you've changed, no longer th skinnySIS i know for 17yrs. aft today, mummy&daddy told me lots of things you did for me. i cried when i heard all those. really a super duper big sorry=(((((


like y'know th durian mooncakes which i like to eat, you specially drove to imm to look for it, imm dont have, so you asked your boyf to go to taka to search for it, but also dont have, you didn't gave up, asked him to go to J8 and buy.

like th prawning, y'know which i wanted to go, daddy didn't wanted to, you persuaded daddy to go tgt to spend time with us. you were tired, but nonetheless, you chose to go cos your meimei wanted to.

like th shoe y'know i wanted, you said no second words, you just agreed to buying. daddyis right, which sister would spend so much money to buy a shoe for her sister or brother, you're not obliged to, but you said you'd buy for me when you get your pay. you dote on me. yes you do.

like th presents i wanted for my birthday, those times.. you weren't working yet. but you saved up just to get them for me. even planned a surprise on how to give it to me. i could nv find a better sis then you.

like th times when i go home late, you ask mummy to call me, told mummy smth like " so late alr, still outside. girl ley". all these shows you care, even though you scold me, but you care. mummy said that if you dont care, you won't even bother scolding me. true.. very true. you're th only sister i have, i'm also your only sister, who else will you dote on if it's not me. dad said, " jiejie zhui teng de jiu shi ni liao" yea. i'm sorry sis=(



BUT.. what about me? i did nth for you. i only know how to quarrel with you, throw tantrums at you. you're stress from work& sch, not only that i didn't help you with your share of housework, i kept quarrelling with you. i think i'm th worst sis you could ever get. but.. i PROMISE, i'll try and help you whenever you can, & will TRY and give in to you. ok?


i love you sis♥. i really do.

random=]]]]]

ok! so NO pictures will be up today again=P


first of all, back from SU chalet. quite a fun & spooky one. awww=((( i think it bonded us better? maybe? heeeee.

secondly, on th 2nd was JEANNIEwifey's &JAYgingerbreadman's birthday!. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!.
this is for jeannie:

girl, you've been there really like a wife. i love you to th core. there were times we weren't close, but i guess you & yinhui are still th ones i always gossip with=P i miss those saturday mornings when we used to have breakfast tgt, and head to GB tgt. GB is where it bonded us & where we grew up tgt. you're just like a twin, understanding my every thoughts. i LOVE you jeannie! 5yrs & still counting. MUACKS MUACKS=D

thirdly, went prawning on saturday, which was mid autumn festival, so i went prawning with my family. our first experience. fun =D i love. although we didn't prawn a lot of prawns(sounds retarded), but we had fun. bumped into alvin&meiyee. so long since i've seen both of them! hahaa. th next will be on my sis's ONE & ONLY 21st bday? =]]]

meeting JOLEEN for tanning soon. & teach her english. hoho. you better work hard JOLEEN