can only blame myself for being stupid.

had business software application's ica today, and it totally sucks. i think i'll fail badly, cos its really bad, i've never felt so.. hm. how should i put it? it feels like i've just been beaten up. and it feels really bad. i think th phrase " the higher your expectations, the harder you'll fall" is true, but what to do but blame myself for being stupid? i really dont wish to disappoint my family. i kn0w they're always there to support me, but i told them i'll work really hard in poly to achieve good results, but why is it that i work so hard but th result seems to different from what i expected it to be? i've put in all my efforts to study ytd, i tried th practice qns, & i could do them. however, it just blank out today, i was on th verge of breaking into tears while doing th test just now. it really is.. just soooo difficult. save me, anyone? i swear that i'm going to work doubly hard for ica2. i called mummy aft th first part of th exam. i didn't want to cry, but when i heard her voice, i felt that i've totally let her down, i kept wiping my tears off, hoping no one will see them. sorry mama.

i met up with vivian aft the second paper at th library, we went to lot1 for dinner+lunch, &accompanied her to popular to get her coloured papers for assignment & cotton on (body) to get her SEXY home wear. aft that went to meet jingkun. super long nv meet this bro of mine alr. i think its close to 2 years that we haven met up alr. went to sit at coffeebean for a chit chat session, soon aft, close to 8, we left as he was going to meet his girlf. goodluck bro for wooing her back.

received an sms from Jean just now. she says she misses me. hahas. i miss her too. we've really been busy with our own stuffs. & it seems hard to find a time to meet up with each other. shall meet her up during june holidays. &june holidays is th time for me to catch up with what i dont know.

Daddy Kwok, Mummy Kwok & Sister Kwok are my pillar of love & strength to continue studying.
Friends like Nah, enen, kt, jean & YH are th people who listens & supports.
LOVE YOU GUYS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.

falling leaves are like blanket at my feet, & i miss you like crazy.